It is good that you recognize your weakness. That keeps you looking to God who is your strength. Abundant life is not necessarily health and wealth, it is living in continual dependence on God.
God can equip you do to absolutely anything as long as it is His Will for you. When you look to God and whisper His name you break free and receive his help. Focus on God and you will find peace in His presence.
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